Change

Today is the deadline for 4th year medical students to certify their rank lists. I'm sure the anxiety level is incredibly high across the country as we wrap up our part in the doctor draft.

My rank list is nothing like I would have imagined it to be a year ago. It is bold and there is nothing safe about it.

I keep thinking about Mark Buchanan's book "Your God is Too Safe" that I read a few years ago. The phrase used repeatedly throughout the book is from The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe when Susan asked about Aslan (the God figure), "Is he quite safe?" Mr. Beaver responded, "Safe? Who said anything about safe? 'Course he isn't safe. But he's good. He's the King I tell you."

I never want to shy away from change or risk out of fear. If I look back on my life to this point it is the moments of risk that have shaped who I am and what I am about. My first trip to India with complete strangers was scary yet I saw on that trip enough to remind me of why I am becoming a surgeon on even the hardest days. Choosing a more expensive college where I didn't have any friends was hard, but I knew I needed to be at Taylor and those four years were pivotal in figuring out who I am and what I believe (and I graduated with some incredible friends!). Getting on a plane to head to India all by myself was terrifying and yet those two months have been one of the defining points in my life.

Here are a few quotes that have been encouraging/challenging to me.

"Unless you are prepared to give up something valuable you will never be able to truly change at all, because you'll be forever in the control of things you can't give up."— Andy Law

"Change is the essence of life. Be willing to surrender what you are for what you could become."

"Life is change. Growth is optional. Choose wisely."

I'm a rockstar wannabe

I love this game! It is my all-time favorite video game. I haven't played much, but when I do it is a blast! Tara, being the wonderful friend that she is, borrowed a PS2 from a friend and Guitar Hero III, so for the past few days we have logged some serious hours playing this game. So far I beat the game on the medium level and am working my way through the hard level. I think playing the violin for most of my life has helped tremendously.

There is something beautiful about vacation time and quality time with others. I am so thankful for this time to invest in relationships!

Chicago Craziness

On Saturday Tara and I decided to head to Chicago and try and find a good last-minute deal on a ticket for a show. As we were waiting to buy tickets for a show Tara saw the sign for a drawing for $25 tickets in the front row for Wicked. Being flexible we decided to go for the raffle and just see if we could get lucky. It turns out Tara's name got called and before we knew it we were sitting in the front row right in the middle for Wicked. It was amazing! I laughed like a little kid so much because I was just blown away by the experience. It spoiled me and I will have a hard time ever sitting in the nosebleeds for a show again. I actually could see their faces, keep characters straight, understand the smaller jokes and funny lines, watch the orchestra, and admire the finer details of the show. Afterwards we met the stars of the show and took some pictures. The girl here played Elphaba- my favorite character. If you go to Chicago go to the Borders next to the Wicked theater at noon and sign up for the raffle. It is worth it!

Set The World On Fire

I just heard this song by Britt Nicole yesterday and love it! The lyrics are incredible and pretty much sum up what I'm all about. The video is here performing it in a studio- pretty incredible for a live performance.

"Set The World On Fire"

I wanna set the world on fire
Until it's burning bright for You
It's everything that I desire
Can I be the one You use?

I, I am small but
You, You are big enough
I, I am weak but
You, You are strong enough to
Take my dreams
Come and give them wings
Lord with You
Nothing I can not do
Nothing I cannot do

I wanna feed the hungry children
And reach across the farthest land
And tell the broken there is healing
And mercy in the Father's hands

Take my dreams
Come and give them wings
Lord with You
Nothing I cannot do
Nothing I cannot do

My hands my feet
My everything
My life, my love
Lord, use me

I wanna set the world on fire
I wanna set the world on fire, yeah

Take my dreams
Come and give them wings
Lord with You
Nothing I cannot do
Take my dreams
Come and give them wings
Lord with You
There's nothing I can't do
Nothing I can't do

I'm gonna set the world on fire
Set the world on fire

Erwin Mcmanus

Erwin (yes we're on a first name basis) is the lead pastor of Mosaic Community in LA. God speaks through this man in profound ways. This video (about 2 minutes long)is from the Catalyst conference a couple of years ago and has really challenged the way I think about being relevant.

Random Thoughts

• Who knew that speedo makes goggles that correct vision for $17??? Why did I do a triathlon in open water blindly? I am thrilled that Dr. Morton directed me towards this wonderful option! Escape from Alcatraz here I come...

• I can't believe my dad is so intensely following American Idol. Who would have guessed?
• I'm blown away by reading about Amy Carmichael (more to come on this later)
  
• One month until match day! Yikes!
  
• My quadriceps still hurt from a workout on Saturday- maybe I need a new motto as opposed to "go hard or go home"
• I can't wait to go to Israel in less than 3 months
• It's hard to believe I will actually be living in my apartment in Indianapolis for the next two months instead of out of a suitcase as a nomad

I miss India

A while back I went with Priti ( a classmate and friend) and her family to a Garba. This is an Indian form of dance that began in the Gujarat state, where my friend's family is from. It was a really fun evening of dancing in circles, eating, learning how to dance with sticks like in the Bollywood movies, and just learning more about the culture my friend has grown up experiencing. Since we danced in our barefeet I had some serious blisters afterwards, but it was well worth it. I miss India. I hope to travel with her in India someday- at least that is our goal. What a great friend!